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Monday, July 24, 2006

series of upcoming events

ha. just when i was about to blog, my ibm called. so sweet of her. so sad. she's leaving but its okie cuz she'll be back real soon again.

today will mark the start of sports camp. hopefully it'll be fun. *cross my fingers and hope* being worldless is really a sad thing but the good thing is you can tag along with any group you like! =)

sentosa trip on sat was fun fun fun!! enjoyed it. can't believe it. we stayed there at the beach for the whole day. its the longest time period i stayed at the beach.
no photos for now. was so glad to see everyone so involved and i believe they enjoyed ya.

yesterday was the most tiring sunday i ever had as i had to go to church rush to sch for banner painting and rush back to church for talentime prac. was totally in a "stone" mode. after that yixiang came over to my place to practise his "maybe singing song" - if i could sing (literal translation)

talentime is 5 days away and i'm not gonna have time to practice. how? hope that i wun screw it up. looking forward.

and she stops bitchin`

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

summary

i realised my heading is always boring cuz firstly i can't think of any nice ones and secondly, i update only a few days a week and i've got lots to tell so it'll end up being a summary or bits and pieces of me and such. boring i know but can't be help. ha

watched pirates yesterday with chew. nice. but i dun like the ending. cuz it leaves u hanging there and we'll have to wait for years b4 the next is out. towards the end, when its reaching the climax, we smelt a burning smell from the back. we were all distracted. anti-climax. missed a part of the show. argh! well but we shld be glad that we completed the show.

sunday was shopping with lingelong at marina. its been ages since i breath the air in town. so pathetic right. been so lazy to shop. guess its a good thing. ha

celebrated dad's bdae on sat. thanks to michael for the durian cake from jalan kayu. my dad liked it. i think. steamboat at home cuz we kinda celebrated on wed at orchard hotel in the noon. dimsum. nice and cheap.

took halfday on thurs. met up with the sa girls in town to buy groceries for out steamboat and crazy night at candice's house. went jiwei's place before that for some drums. bought daddy this braun belt before the groceries. hope he liked it. after the filling steamboat with some banging on the piano, i met michael for "supper". impromptu but its nice. went geylang for durian after spinning round and round in town. felt kinda guilty forgetting to ask if da girls wanted durian b4 heading back and canndice was so craving for it. sorry. it was quite a nice night out with michael. for the first time. at least i gotta know more bout my zhuyuan. ha. before we parted, we decided to have another durian session and this time round must ask all the fellowship ppl. think its gonna be fun.

stole this from harn's blog as i DUN HAVE the photos. *hint hint*

and she stops bitchin`

Thursday, July 13, 2006

stumbling block

"Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother's way....Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil."
Romans 14:13, 16

reading romans 14 makes me realise something. its not about me everything. i haven't been in good mood for the past few days and ppl around me suffered. if i do or express watever i feel and want not considering other ppl, i might cause ppl to stumble. i believe when one of your friends/brothers and sisters is down, depress, you'll be affected. similarly, i've learnt that my bad temper affects others. i dunno how it'll affect but certain cases might cause ppl to lose faith and stuff. Lord, i pray that i'll learn to control my mind and emotions and not be a stumbling block to others. i pray that i'll learn not to judge others using my standards for i myself is weak and sinful.
there's not only emotions that can stumble ppl but also the way we react to things. somethings we perceive as good or not too bad might create negative impact on others. i pray that i'll seek to do things that will edify others rather than be spoken of as evil.

i thank God for making me realise how negatively i can affect others and myself when i'm in a fowl mood. i thank Him for giving me joy and peace once again today.

sometimes when you're feeling rather depressed, u'll feel it even more if u dwell in it. and when you're happy, everything seems to fall into place. so why not seek to be positive and joyful in all things. even if the world collapse on you, there's still God who's always there to support.

and she stops bitchin`

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

fowl mood

these few days hadn't been good for me.

i just felt sian bout anything and everything. a minute extra of staying out with ppl will blow my mind. i'll just go insane. i felt like i'm no longer myself. i cannot give the genuine smile i use to give in fellowship.

nothing triggered this fowl mood. i dunno why. i just dun feel good. just felt like being away from ppl and staying at home.

monday was jamming at alvron as usual, but i just dun feel like goin. not like i'll learn much. so lil' time dedicated to so many students. is it really constructive? mayb i shldn't be so selfish to deprive kaiwei and yijie of their drums lesson. afterall they were the first few students. i recalled wat yijie wrote on a note for me asking if i shld stick to one drums shifu or stay with 2? in actual fact, are drums lesson really drums lesson? it feels more like chill out sessions. after so many lessons i still can't play. you can say that i'm a "san fen zhong re du" person just like wat my mum kept saying. watever.

its not like i want to be this kinda person, but am i really given a chance to learn it properly and apply it? is this the proper channel to learn things? i'm just overloaded with tons of stuffs and activities i guess.

yesterday was suppose to be guitar lesson at ling's place, but i ended up home instead. not feeling too well, physically and probably mentally. sometimes i just wonder, will i get depression one day? i may seem strong and stuff but i'm afterall a human being. i do fall and have my weaknesses (hidden). i know i'm not alone for He is there, but sometimes i just feel empty. reading His words din get me anything. my mind was totally blocked. but yesterday, i finally understood something. Christians are not superior to non-christians and grace is given to us with no strings attached.

i read romans 11. God did not reject His people, but it is we who rejected Him and His son. and i learnt to be humble as a christian as it is said, like the gentiles, we're grafted into the branches, tapping the "nutrients" ie grace and salvation. since God can graft it in, He can also cut it away. christians are not superior than others as God loves not only christians but also non-christians. we are all His children.
(above is jus a short sharing of wat i learnt from my qt)

i guess i'm just pms-ing and my mood swings really badly. at times i'll be okie and at times i'll be really sian of everything

and she stops bitchin`

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

senior's camp

fri's theme park at OCH is no longer scary. furthermore, this yrs theme park has very little scare elements.
went back to sch feelin really exhausted. bathed. wanted to sleep and hongying suggested drawing on those asleep. kinda fun but evil. ended with only an hour of sleep.

had some field games on sat morning. as campcommers, we din have to play, hence a few of us went around sabotaging the GLs and BLs. i had my part of fun squeezing mustard on them. *evil grin* waited for mummy to fetch me home efore worship prac at T21. drove the union van with terrence to pump patrol. *excited* for the first time i drove an auto van! nice.
viewed a showflat at lakeside, lake holme, with sis, xuan, mum and bro-in-law. it was nice and much bigger than my current house. like duh. interior designed. so feel like moving house now.

watched left behind for fellowship prog. its meaningful, but i'm so sorry, i dozed off occasionally as i was really tired. michael had to pinch me a few times so that i'll be kept awake. went home after dinner downstairs at T21 and i died, dead tired, at 9 plus.

and she stops bitchin`

Thursday, July 06, 2006

irritated

was suppose to meet the jc gurls at 645 at dempsey road, ps cafe. went home to take the car and checked on the street directory for directions.
on the way there, i missed alot of turns and i ended up at beach road.
the feeling of driving on the road IN SINGAPORE for an hour plus totally suck. its so near and yet so far. okie i shall not complain any further.

went to 2 nice places in a day though it was really short, all thanks to gwenie! first was ps cafe at that stupid dempsey road, then it was one rochester at rochester park at bouna vista. they both have really nice ambience. romantic. ha

rushed back to sch at bout 10 odd to meet jieshi and jasmine to pack the theme park stuff. so many things not done! argh!

my daily life's so packed but i feel that its kinda routine.
work in the day, out in the night. i have not much time spent at home. sad!

went back yesterday at bout 11 and i manage to catch xuan awake. hi-fived with her and i told her "xuan, next time when yiyi come back must hi-five with yiyi okie!" and she seemingly understood wat i said and kinda agreed. but i think she'll forget the next time she sees me. its just so fun to be child-like. no worries bout anything but i guess its a process everyone has to go thru, that is to grow old and our purpose on earth is not just to grow old and experience luxurious lives but to do the work of God. its easier said than done, but i'll try.

tmr's gonna be senior's camp. hope everything's gonna go well.

and she stops bitchin`

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

country bumpkin

was heading back to sch for meeting yesterday after work. it was quite a long journey from bt timah to boonlay interchange. upon reaching the station, i got a shock cuz the interchange shifted to the back. for a moment i was lost, not knowing where exactly to go for bus 179.
i realised it's been ages since i last took bus to sch.

meeting was rather long but was quite hilarious when terrence was doin his updates. he's just a joker i guess. my ex-roomie couldn't stop laughing even when everyone else stopped.

just read zing's SPAM and i really miss 14th comm. though we all went diff paths after we stepped down but there's just this strong bond that cannot be replaced. ppl might see sports club ppl as a bunch of ppl attracting lotsa attention and there are ppl who dislike us to the core but i love them. i enjoy all their company. rain once said, "the difference between sports club guys and other guys is that they will always protect the gurls wherever we go. its without fail." ya how true. and i truly give thanks for the chance to know all of them.

met xianxi after the meeting. he drove to ntu to pick me up. so nice right. ha. went to this hilltop place at tuas (near jurong birdpark). on the way there he listed a lot of places in singapore which i've never been to or i dun recall goin b4. feels totally not like a singaporean who grew up here.

the place was quite nice. we gotta see the nice view of jurong/part of sg i guess. singapore's actually quite nice when you see it at night with all the lights. oh prob gotta see it from high places.

last sat. i had the weirdest soccer watching experience. first and foremost, i'm not a soccer fan. second, i've not watched a single match of this world cup. third, i watched my first and last match (till now) with 3 bros, michael, jansen and winson. though weird, it was quite interesting and i found it quite enjoyable cuz winson was really uptight when portugual nearly score or england missed the goal.

this week's gonna be real pack again. and senior's camp's coming. looking forward to theme park.

and she stops bitchin`